Friday was a good day!

other life changing events

I just finished the book "love the one you are with".  It basically is about a woman in a content marriage meets up with an old boyfriend with whom she had a very passionate relationship with.  All in all she thinks that she shouldn't be married to her husband because their relationship isn't filled with passion.  This hit me very close to home.  At the end I read this paragraph that has answered a lot of questions I have had....

"Sometimes there are no happy endings.  No matter what, I'll be losing something, someone.

But maybe that's what it all comes down to.  Love, not as a surge of passion, but as a choice to commit to something, someone, no matter what obstacles or temptations stand in the way.  And maybe making that choice, again and again, day in and day out, year after year, says more about love than never having a choice to make it all."

This is huge for me and I even opened up to mike and shared it with him.

Nope, try again.

What's this familiar feeling?

So a few weeks ago I went in for the U/S for my IUD and got the call earlier this week that everything is just fine. Great, great!
Saturday, I go to meijers with my mom and get so dizzy that I have to call Mike and have him come pick me up. Sunday, Monday and Tuesday I can not get enough sleep to save my life. I am still exhausted today but am able to deal with it and just go to bed early. Then, as always with a period, I crave CARBS. pasta, breadsticks, pizza anything I can get my hands on. The strange thing that bothers me is (forgive me is this is TMI) my nipples hurt, bad. This was the trigger for me to take a pregnancy test with the girls.
When I was at the doctor a few weeks ago they did a pregnancy test and it was negative. Is it possible, could it be? Should I take another PT?

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My daughters are the light of my life. Part of the time they drive me up the wall crazy but the rest of the time, when they are being angels, makes up for it all. My plans are to have more little lights in my life, at least one, maybe two. Mike isnt so much big on the idea of two more but we will see. After the girls were born I made the discussion to have an IUD placed in because with twins I decided that it would be best to wait for at least three years to have more babies. Plus Mike is so fertile I think he can get me pregnant by shaking hands.

Of course now that the girls are 2 1/2 I have baby fever (which is sometimes cured when my nephews spend the night). Mike is still not ready for another child and I respect that. So as I wait in the last two months I have had spotting and bleeding almost everyday. I finally called the doctor because this is not normal with the IUD. I went in for a pelvic exam and they took a lot of test and told me that I need to go that day and have an ultrasound to find the IUD because it does not appear to be in the right place. At the ultrasound the tech told me everything looked fine. (I would just like to say though that there is something very sad and lonely about an ultrasound with no babies inside.)

Finally on Tuesday afternoon I got a call from the nurse for my doctor and she said that "the IUD is in the uterus". unfortunatley she did not know what that means and I need to get with my OB-GYN. I told her at the current time, my ob does not take my insurance so I couldn't just go to her. She said she would talk to the doctor and get back with me. I became worried at this point, the IUD is supposed to be in uterus cavity and I was told if its not in the correct spot it needs to be surgical removed. This struck a huge cord on my biological clock, I want more children and if the doctors screw up my uterus because they dont know what they are doing, I am not going to be very happy. Scared I called the after hours OB and he told me that he would need to see the test results first thing in the morning and get back with me. About 11am this morning I get a call from a nurse at the OB's office. She said that they need me to call and request my test results to be faxed to their office. When I called my doctor, they said to leave a message on the nurse's voicemail.

So now it is Wednesday night and I haven't heard from anyone. I am nervous to see how this is going to work out. If the IUD is ok, why am I still bleeding? but if the IUD is in wrong, what will I do for BC, will it hurt my uterus to have the doctors in there trying to remove something? When I got the IUD, one of my main concerns was how will this effect me getting pregnant again and the OB assured me that it does not. I just want a healthy girl section, so I can enjoy expanding my family.