Faced with a new challenge

When i gave birth to my daughters I wanted more than anything to stay home and not go back to work.  I had a horrible fear that because they would spend most of their waking hours with a child care giver, they would look to her as the mother.  I begged with Mike to go part time but it just wasnt possible.  we didnt make enough money.  I got use to going back to work and appreciated having a few hours away from the girls each day.  I basically decided to leave it in God's hands.  As time went on our babysitter decided she needed something different and we needed to find something else.  Before this had happened mike and i had planned for it and realized the only option we had was for me to work PT.  I received approval and my first day on the new schedule I realized my girls are going to be first in my life and not just fit in around work.  

I took total advantage of this and spend "quality" time with the girls everyday.  We grew a much closer bond, in fact they may be a little to reliable on me.  I get to spend my days with the girls and from 4-8 get time away at work.  The more time i spend with them the more i realize they would like to get away from me a few hours a day and have other kids to play with.  I started considering working more hours during the week and giving them the chance to go to a day care for a few hours.  because of money this wasnt going to work.

A few weeks ago I put my app in for a new position at work.  the salary starts at 35K.  this would be a huge help to my family financially but would require me to go back FT.  with this salary we could afford daycare.  not that i want the girls raised by someone else, but i really think they would like the structure.  if i take this opportunity I would be giving up the chance of being home in the first few years of any new babies we have.

So i guess this is my prayer...Lord, this is in your hands and I pray you give me the strength to handle whatever comes my way.