I have decided to keep a blog about my life as a mother of twins. They are my world in so may ways. Everything i do is focused towards them...there is so much to say i dont know where to begin. I'm overwhelmed so i will just start from the beginning.
March 6, 2006 i started working at Jackson, that day i casually meet Mike but we didnt say anything other than hi. I saw him a few times in the next couple a days and i had this preconceived opinion of the type of guy he was. basically cuz he wore a earning i thought, he thought he was the s#$t. At this point i just laughed to myself about him. A few days later, my TL asked me job shadow with someone on the team. she began looking around at the team members and in my head i am thinking "please pick anyone but mike" (i dont know why but he made me nervous), then she said the words that changed my life forever, how about sit with mike. argghh! I tried to stall as long as possible but I finally pushed my chair next to him and fumbled around to get situated. The only thing i could think about was the smell of his cologne. he smelled so good i could barely stand to sit next to him.
finally after 2 weeks of training together, and lots of hints on my part, he asked me to have drinks with him and his friends. about 6 weeks later, i was getting ready to start a new birth control, when i found an old pregnancy test laying around. immediately after completing the test two lines appeared. i couldnt believe it so i went to the doctor and they confirmed Dec 22, 2006 you will be a mother.
i had always wanted to be a mother but it just wasnt the way it was suppose to happen. i began to get use to the idea and was waiting around for mike to get use to it too. may 11, 2006 i woke up with cramps, i called the doctor and they asked me to come in so they could take a look. they listened to the heartbeat and did a few tests then suggested i have an ultrasound. they said there was a possiblity i was losing the baby, had an etopic pregnancy or was just growing super fast. at this point i was scared. i had just got use to the idea of a baby and now it might be taken away. as the nurse did the U/S i nervously chewed my nails. i needed to know if the baby was ok or not. she could tell i was nervous and started trying to chat with me. she asked me questions about twins running in my family or if i had seen a fertility doctor. (i was really dumb not to get her hints) finally she said let me show the baby, she said all looks fine and turned the screen to my view. i honestly felt like i hit the jackpot on a slot machine and was waiting for the buzzer to go off and confirm i was a winner. on the screen sat two little blobs. i had seen enough ultrasounds working for a fertility doctor a few years back, to know i was having more than one baby. i kept waiting for this nurse to tell me i wasnt seeing things correctly but instead she said this is baby a and this is baby b. i dont remember much more cuz i started crying. I knew it was probably the biggest moment of my life and i was alone, nervous, happy, scared...i felt it all at that moment. they printed me pictures and i still couldnt believe it. i started calling all my friends and family. I next had to see mike face to face and tell him. i meet him on his lunch at work with a U/S pic that said "twins". i just gave him the picture and he looked at for a long time. i knew when it hit him cuz he stopped breathing, then said "oh boy".
From that moment on i was no longer Erka, i was the protector and care giving of those two blobs.
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