a little reminder

i love my children more than life.  they make me smile whenever i think about them but there are days when i wonder if i really want more.  

today i took the girls to their first cinema movie.  we saw monsters vs aliens.  uncle pizzle and grandma Maggie came along.  Vanna has been running a fever so she sat through it real well.  about half way thru the movie i remembered that i had not changed Maddie before the movie, so i grabbed her and went to the bathroom.  thanks to the cheap target brand diapers her pants were SOAKED.  i changed her and took them off.  i tried to dry them with the hand dryer but they were so wet it didn't do anything.  so i took her back into the movie with just her diaper on.  *shrug*

at this point she was done with the movie.  "momma i all done", "momma lets go home".  we were in the aisle row so i just let her crawl around on the floor since this made her happy.  she then settled down and watched the rest of the movie.  at this point her and Vanna were both getting "feisty" for lack of better word, and we went out to my parents with grandpa time.  before i worked part time we spend every Wednesday night with them for "Wednesdays with grandpa".  these girls have him wrapped more times around the finger than i ever had him and i have always been daddy's little girl.   

anyway, it was close to seven by the time we got home and the house and kitchen were destroyed, laundry needed to be folded and dinner still hadn't been cooked.  after i did all those things the girls still needed a bath and Vanna was whiny.  i had the girls in the tub and was putting the bumper back on Vanna's bed (yesterday morning she threw up all over her bed and i had to wash everything), i was thinking how i was stressed and tired and just wanted to have time alone for a minute then i remembered....I was in the salon this morning and one of the stylist was asking about my girls, i get so proud talking about them and love telling people how lucky i am to get to stay home with me, duh!  why was i stressed?  i have two beautiful girls who light up my life, at that moment i realized there was no where else in the world i wanted to be other than making my daughters bed for her.

i am blessed beyond blessed and of course i want another child.  nothing in this world makes me feel the way my children do.